Between the Lines

I need you to promise me

I need you to stay with me

I need you to fight it, ’cause how could you ever leave?

Don’t take yourself away from me

For I’d be leaving in a dream

Where bittersweet ignited, for where after then would I be?


The world is crashing down on you

The heavy weight is drowning you

You’ve split your heart and I’ve spilled mine

But I could never be more proud of you


I know what it’s like

Walking through the halls

And they don’t ever understand

But for you I’d fight them all

You’re not a waste of space

You’re not just passing time

You’re hurt and lost and so confused

But can you read between the lines?


I’m an author?!

Disclaimer: If you guys have been with me for a while, you’ll know (and most of you probably understand deeply) my struggles with titles. So I’m not even going to.

So for those of you who follow my instagram, you might have seen a pattern in a few of my older drawings. Here’s an example:

This exact picture wasn’t uploaded, but progresses were. It has become a familiar concept to me in drawing…

Here are a few more examples 😉

Anyways the point is that our eighth grade creative writing class has us create blogs and I am a part of two new ones (surprise!), one of which is a short story type of blog. So I developed a new idea that might possibly include these blind but powerful ladies for my story.

Let me know if you guys would like to see updates of the story… I would like to keep my identity on my school blog separate from here for reasons that you also probably all understand but if you ask me then I’ll do it.

Thanks for reading, the post was short today sorry (or you’re welcome?)

Wishing you the infinite magic of love, {*~infinitmagic~*}

Up in the Clouds

Hey guys so my eighth grade creative writing class requires everyone to make their own blog, and my friends and I created Up in the Clouds! So check it out if it interests you, we haven’t posted yet but our categories are reading, writing, art, music, and books. There are five of us and we each post on a separate day, my day is Wednesday and my pen name is CJ River 😀

So this was just an informative post about it, if you’d like to you can go leave it a follow and kick start us up

Thanks, love y’all!

Wishing you the infinite magic of love, {*~infinitmagic~*}


book rant

Welcome back magical masters and mistresses! I think today I’m just going to ramble about books in general; books I wanna read, books I love/hate, and everything in between.

So first of all, school-assigned books are the worst. Right now we’re reading a book called Riot in Social Studies (history) in which we are learning about the (American) Civil War. It’s a screenplay, which makes it a quick read but honestly it’s hard for my brain to keep track of those kinds of books. We have a project due on November 1st and I still haven’t started reading the book.

My current reading book is called Fool’s Quest by Robin Hobb. It’s the second book of a trilogy written by Hobb called the Fitz and the Fool; Hobb also has many other trilogies of the same cast of characters and setting. And honestly, I saw the last book on a bookshelf in Barnes & Noble and the word assassin caught my eye, so I took a picture of it and later asked my mom to order it for me on Amazon. I didn’t read the blurb or anything, I just wanted a book with assassins, so, yes, I judged a book by its cover *collective gasp*

So far, I didn’t get what I was looking for but I’m not disappointed. The main character is a retired assassin, which wasn’t what I was hoping for, but still makes for an interesting story. It also teaches a lot about family for he is a widower of a daughter he loves fiercely but does not know quite how to take care of. The second book starts with that daughter being kidnapped, so I mean it’s still a good read. It’s a bit difficult because it’s old-style and has a lot of big, fancy words, kind of like the Hobbit, but it makes me feel so extra whenever I freewrite because I tend to adapt to the books I’m reading when I’m writing. Also, people say the font is so small and “How can you even read that?” but honestly, it doesn’t bother me that much and I don’t notice the small-ity (?) of the font at all.

Some books that I’ve enjoyed on my shelf for rereading are the classic A Wrinkle in Time, which was given to me by a friend, and the Wings of Fire series which I guess is kind of young for me but always fills me with such joy. Also, it is the only series that I completely own on my bookshelf (that is more than 2 books), which really satisfies me because that’s how I like to role, with a whole series instead of just one book. I used to have the complete Warriors series (at least the first series in that series), but my sister borrowed the first book and lost it at the mall, and by the way I also had 2 copies of the second book (which I have no idea how) but she also somehow lost one of those copies too. The last book I’m going to mention is War Horse, which is from the point of view of a horse named Joey during a war between Britain and Germany. I’m not sure exactly what war it is, but I’m sure you all know. I’m not advanced in history rip. I just love the narration and HORSES.

A series I want to read is A Game of Thrones, which I am not allowed to read or watch but I think I’d enjoy immensely. It was my dad’s favorite show, and I really want to get in it because it seems so awesome. I also want to read The Fault in Our Stars, which I was hesitant about at first because I know it is about cancer and I know the guy dies in the end, which I was scared would remind me of my dad but I made the resolve to read it so I shall. I don’t have high expectations for it, though.

I just want to recommend some books/series quickly: The Mortal Instruments by Cassandra Clare, Midnight Thief by Livia Blackburne, Red Queen (series) by Victoria Aveyard, and finally The Selection (series) by Kiera Cass. These are mostly fantasy/action romance books, which are the kind of books I read, lmao.

The last thing before I sign off because I don’t want to make this too long is our school is hosting a book fair for a week like we do every year. It started last Friday and ends this Friday. I went yesterday at lunch and bought 4 books for $30, I’m so hyped! The first is Hunter by Mercedes Lackey, which like The Fitz and the Fool I did not read any blurb before buying, it just looked so damn cool. The second book is called Frost by M.P. Kozlowksy, which I guess I kind of cover-judged too. I have no idea what it’s about but it reminds me of the cover of Cinder from the Lunar Chronicles by Marissa Meyer (another free book recommendation, yay). I think I kind of regret buying it because I could have saved some money, I kind of bought it on impulse, but I’m sure it’ll be great like all books. Still a bit nervous about it. Btw, I just noticed it is the author of Dorothy Must Die, which I saw the girl I sit next to in Social Studies was reading (she told me it was overdue) and I read the blurb of that, which seemed pretty interesting in which the Wizard of Oz is practically backwards. The third book I got is Cruel Crown by Victoria Aveyard, which is kind of an extra in her series that I mentioned before. I got if for $3 and it is really thin, and my friend said half of it was a preview of Glass Sword, which is the second bookof the series and I have already read it, but I think it’s worth it. In terms of it being an extra, I think it’s supposed to be a prequel the way Fairest was to the Lunar Chronicles (that was also very thin and also the backstory of an evil queen, although Cruel Crown is more about a feud between 2 queens in which 1 overthrew the other). The last book is called Crescendo by Becca Fitzpatrick, which is the sequel to Hush, Hush which I read last year from the library. If you don’t know what a crescendo is in music, let me inform you ;D it is when the dynamics grow louder, basically. I’m excited about this book but it pisses me off that I don’t have the first book 😡

Anyways my rant is over, comment some book suggestions or if you know any of these books!

Wishing you the infinite magic of love, {*~infinitmagic~*}

Cursory Cursive

Ah, how I miss the old titles. Cksosjiwkdbchwhdgaihdjwjdbjsjsjsjwbdbsjdjejdndjowldbdjoelsnfiekwks(mood). 

So lately I’ve been writing a story based on the word “Hostage.” Originally it has been “Bounty,” but what had been going through my head just wasn’t appropriate for that. See, one of my teachers was talking and said the word “bounty,” and I was like, Well, wouldn’t that make a nice writing prompt, so I wrote it down in my notebook and later took it out, transferred it to another notebook, and began writing. 

Now this isn’t my typical “inspiration that lasts for 2 hours” type of writing. That’s usually how it goes when I type my stories on my computer; I go to do something else and then I forget about it. This, Hostage, it’s different. It’s being written, which I haven’t done since I was about 7, and it’s also in cursive, which makes it aesthetically pleasing to look at. Not trying to brag about my cursive skills, but it just feels great to look at all the loops and embellishes and *fancy words*more fancy words*

Dnshbxusjdueiddhiejfiejdjdjfkgkdjwhdiejdjririjdnsjfisjfiekdjrisifjdifjjekdj(mood tho)

Not many kids these days know cursive. Back in my day… most kids still didn’t know cursive. We learned it in second grade—10 minutes at the end of each day to just practice maybe a letter. It didn’t continue into third grade, but those little strips on the wall with the letters of the alphabet on them turned into cursive letters instead of print. I naturally picked it up.

Now for me, cursive is the most fun to write in ink. With ballpoint pens, it flows so nicely and looks greatjdjdjqjdjejicjdjimingreatmoodtodayandwedidntevenhaveschoolwhatamidoinh. 

Ok, now I have to actually incorporate the title. So if you don’t know what cursory means, it means this: just kidding look it up I can’t remember an exact meaning sorry. Whenever I write cursive, I start to write really quickly, and then my writing gets messy and weird and cmskxkfkejcjrjwjjxb. Still looks great tho. 

*nicely transitioning conclusion*

*the end*

Wishing you the infinite magic of love, {*~infinitmagic~*}

P.Sz dksnshjfeijdudiwjdjrkglhoidhj 

7 Things

Hey kings and queens, here are seven things you might not have known about me that have developed in my absence from the blogosphere or that I just never shared. 

  1. I love Snapple. I have a bottle everyday. My mom gets a 24-pick from Costco, with lemon, half-lemon, raspberry, and peach (peach is the best). 
  2. I am a sweatshirt person. I love oversized clothes in general, and my weak spot especially is sweatshirts. I own I think 5, along with various sweaters and such. Mostly I wear just two: a white one that says “girl power,” and my blue volleyball sweatshirt. 
  3. I have become really connected to my music. I listen on the bus ride to school and back, and in car rides and a lot of times at home. I listen to a variety of different things, like pop and also not pop. Very descriptive, I know 😂 Let me know if you guys would want to know what songs/playlists I have. 
  4. Everyday I walk to the high school to take French. Our school offers languages starting in 7th grade. For Spanish they offer 1 and 1A, 1A being half of 1, and students who took the first half would take 1B in eighth grade. For French, that offered only the option of 1A, so students would only have that option and would take 1B in eighth grade. Or, of course, could drop out and perhaps take German. In my case, I and four other students was invited to take the eighth grade course, aka 1B, over the summer, and then move on to French 2 in eighth grade, which would typically be a high school course. Now I don’t like the walking part, I’ve never been good at that, but I think it’s an effort worth making. 
  5. My room is practically a collage. The wall that my bed and desk are pushed against is 3/4 covered in drawings of mine and some other pictures and stuff, with various others scattered around the room. I think I like it a lot, but I haven’t been adding to it a lot because I draw in sketchbooks and don’t often rip out the pictures. And, of course, if you’ve read the post I haven’t been drawing as much. Just little doodles in class *whoops*
  6. I had a cat for some period of time. I can’t remember if I told you guys, I’m not exactly sure when it is that I stopped blogging. In around January or February, I came home from a volleyball tournament in good moods because I’m pretty sure we’d won the tournament. Yes, impressive for such a potato. But I remember walking upstairs and seeing the whiteboard moved out of my room, which I wasn’t happy about but my mom insisted there was no room. The first thing I saw was the red little bed (that she never ended up using, btw). Her name was Summer, she was about one year old and she was the prettiest thing I’ve ever seen. Completely shy, but she’d sleep on my bed at night, which I so miss. She got adopted, as we were only fostering here. My mom promised me another cat, but so far she’s postponed it and I know she will continue to for as long as she can. She does not want a cat in the house. Remind me to include a picture of her in a future post 😁
  7. I have officially run out of facts, my brain is pretty fried and it’s 10:59 PM so I guess that’ll be all you’re getting, sorry. I already cut this down from 10 so 😂😂

I encourage you to post seven things about yourself that you just never mentioned or were to afraid to! If you do be sure to tell me so I can check it out, love yall! 😘

Wishing you the infinite magic of love, {*~infinitmagic~*}

Wasting away

So if I had to describe my life at this moment, I would say school and violin. Those are my top two priorities: do well in school and with my private lessons and orchestra, and then at home to do my homework and practice violin. Everything else? Unimportant. Insignificant. I don’t read as much anymore, I don’t write anymore, I barely draw… and these are the things that used to define me as a person. 

Today I skipped lunch, because my friend was crying over the fact that four of teachers had called her a know-it-all, and then proceeded to tell the counselor too. Another friend spent almost the entire lunch period trying to comfort her. I didn’t entirely agree with what she said, but I couldn’t think of anything else to say. I’ve always thought myself to be a person who can comfort another in a time of hardship, but this is the second incident in which I seem to have not been the one who makes someone laugh when they’re crying. I don’t know what happened, but I know I don’t want to lose that part of myself as a person. I don’t know what to do anymore. But anyways, that cost me my lunch as we returned to the caf about 10 minutes before the lunch period, and the cafeteria ladies don’t serve any more food after a certain time. And we all know how much I love and need my food. 

In the past two days of health we’ve had guest speakers talking about their experiences with depression. What they said felt like what I’m feeling… but I can’t be sure. It might just be 8th grade, or something else I can’t identify. I don’t know if this is a cry for help, I realize this is probably the darkest post I’ve ever written; I usually try to keep it light and cheerful, because that’s how I think I’d like to be. And maybe you guys don’t really know who I am anymore, what with me not posting and I guess even a whole side of me that I wasn’t sharing?

I really hope I can get back to posting, I miss this community so much. I don’t know how you guys do it, you’re all so amazing and dedicated. The next post will be back to the norms and more cheerful 😀 

How are you guys? Love y’all 😘

Wishing you the infinite magic of love, {*~infinitmagic~*}